Now, I have to decide if I want to see her before she passes or not. Up until this afternoon I was planning to go Memorial Day weekend, but my dad isn't sure she will make it that long.
For most people this probably isn't a decision, but I'm really not very close to her. Plus, I don't know that I want my last memories of her to to be with her in a hospital in the hospital. The last time I saw her she was sitting in her chair in her house enjoying having her family around. That is much more pleasant memory.
I'm sure some of you think I'm a terrible person, and maybe I am. Most of you probably think I will regret it if I don't go. I'm pretty comfortable in saying that I won't even if that makes me a terrible person.
My being there doesn't change anything for her, but it might please my dad. Is that a reason to go? I just don't know.
I need some more time to think and pray. My dad is correct when he said that I have to be comfortable with the consequences of my decision which ever way I go.
~Heather
Follow your heart Heather. No matter what you decide it will be the right decision for YOU. You could never be a terrible person, you have a kind heart, let it lead the way for you.
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